𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒚𝒖𝒕𝒂,

⠀⠀⠀⠀It's been a year since I realized you are the love of my life. One year loving you, hoping for many more to come. I still can't find the right words to explain how much I love you, or even to describe you. But I really need to thank you, for showing me what true love really is. For showing me I am worth it. For showing me I can always do my best and BE my best. You're an inspiration for me Yuta, and I can't imagine a life without seeing your smile, or how happy you are. Baby you are more than just flesh and bones. You're infinite, constant expansion. You can't be controled or limited. You are more than what the human brain is capable to undesrtand, define or qualify. You're Nakamoto Yuta. The most incredible man I've ever had the fortune to meet. I hope you're always happy my baby. Whatever happens, please choose happiness. You matter, your smile matters. So please, if you ever feel down, just remember that you have people there for you, willing to cross oceans for you, to make you feel better. Thank you for all the memories, for all the times you made me laugh, for all the friends you brought to me. Thank you for making my life better without even knowing so. I hope life treats you kind, and that you get all the love this world can offer. Someday I will look at my past, and I know I will be able to smile, because I had you to make things better. I hope that when you look at your past you can feel happiness too baby. Don't overwork yourself, stay healthy and rest. We believe in you, my angel. We know what you're capable of. So don't ever doubt yourself. I know we all go through hard times, but we have to see the light. I saw mine. It was you. And it still is. Dear yuta, time isn't our ally. It will bring surprises, ones that we're not ready to face, ones that will bring us joy, ones that are unpredictable. So when the hard times come, don't forget who you are. Hang on tight baby. Be strong. I will be there for you. Pain wont last forever and we will be able to smile again. You've done well my prince! Look how far you came! And I know you still have a flowery path to walk through. So let's walk through it all together. For one more year. For 10 more. For as long as life and fate allows us to. And I hope that you never lose your smile. Or the glow you have in your eyes. I fell for you when I looked at your smile and stars in it. I fell for you when I looked into your eyes and saw the galaxies. I fell for you when I looked into your heart and saw the fire that warms mine. I fell for you when I looked into your soul and saw the glow it has. I saw gold. I saw the sun. I felt peace, love and kindness. I saw you. And you showed me what love is. You showed me courage. You showed me who I want to be. You showed me eternity and infinity. For that, I will be forever grateful. I love you. Forever and always.

𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒋𝒐

𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞

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𝟑𝟔𝟓 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮

1- your smile
2- your laugh
3- your eyes
4- your hands
5- your waist
6- your voice
7- the way you dance
8- when you get salty
9- you being soft
10- you're literally the definition of sin, lust and talent when performing
11- you're also the definition of softness on stage
12- you: wearing blue
13- you: wearing lavender
14- your purple hair
15- your outfits and hairstyles for cherry bomb
16- you give sense to all the love songs to ever exist
17- i feel like dancing, whenever i see you doing the same
18- the fact you can change my mood in a matter of seconds
19- your smile makes me smile (it's cheesy i know, but even the cheesy and cliché things seem to be fine when it comes to you)
20- i literally cried for over a week when touch came out, cause seeing you singing more, being the center on the choreo and most importantly, having fun during the song, made me realize how much i love you how i would do ANYTHING just to see you like that forever
21- youre a feminist icon
22- your japanese debut and how proud you were with it
23- your interactions with the fans
24- how you care so much about everyone around you
25- your interactions with your group members
26- you have a pure soul
27- your heart is made of gold
28- youre kindest human being i've ever met
29- youre extremely precious, and i would trade kingdoms to see you happy
30- your lines in back 2 u (aka the superior nct 127 song)
31- how you put everyone's well being above your own
32- when you lead the members through nct life in osaka
33- how you spent EVERY hour of the trip, worried if the members were having enough fun
34- how you planned every little detail for the trip, making sure the boys would love it
35- you chose the places based not on what you would wanted to see the most, but on what you thought would make the members would enjoy the most
36- how you welcomed winwin during nct life seoul
37- how you made him feel comfortable, even tho there was the language barrier
38- when you said how you knew that the language could be an obstacle for the foreigner trainees, but still managed to help everyone
39- you show a flirty impression for those who see you for the first time, but when i looked closer, i saw youre actually someone extremelly intense and ready to love and support the ones who mean a lot to you
40- how you work hard for every single thing you want
41- how you never give up on your dreams
42- how you subtly support the boys in nct, by giving them encouraging and kind words, a high five, or even your hugs
43- you're clingy
44- you're like compliments, not because you want anyone to boost your ego, but because you want to know you did well. Baby, you did well. You're doing well. You're amazing
45- your airport style
46- your soccer skills
47- how you get happy when you get to talk about japan
48- how happy you get talking in japanese
49- how you get even happier when you see the boys talking in japanese
50- you helping them to speak in japanese

51- and of course, when YOU praise them for the great work
52- when you run your hands during the spli in the cherry bomb choreo
53- THAT one 0 mile performance (you know what im talking about)
54- you performing black on black
55- when you're smiling, but then your smile turns into a smirk and then the smirk turns into a lip bite
56- your cooking skills
57- when you praise your own cooking skills
58- when you were SO sure you would go to the next phase on nct kfood challenge
59- how you failed miserably and your disbelief face was extremely funny, baby let's just accept we're not the best when it comes to cooking
60- how you got hyped to help taeyong
61- how you hyped taeyong for his praising skills
62- you're a slytherin
63- the fact that instead of helping taeyong you were literally talking all the time
64- when you offered to help taeyong with the barbecue in paju, but kept running around the house with that sward, playing like a samurai
65- you eating lemons
66- how you HATED to eat those lemons (which is my favorite fruit btw)
67- when you said you couldnt whistle (dont worry, i cant either)
68- when you made the piggeon sound
69- "hey guys, my lame is yuta"
70- when you do that Voldemort thing with your nose
71- when you call yourself the takoyaki prince (but you actually failed at making takoyaki during nct life osaka, you silly)
72- when you were in the hounted house
73- "sawadikrap"
74- when you wink
75-"herro evwryone"
76- when you said NCT stands for "new culture technology"
77- rookie yuta
78- "i dont look for the camera, the camera is looking for me"
79- how your eyes shine
80- "harry puttar"
81- the way you say "wingardium leviosa" ("it's leviOsa, not leviosA")
82- your aegyo
83- you being extra
84- when you call yourself "healing smile"
85- your smile (yes, i am saying it again)
86- you nd your extra and soft ass during nct's angel cafe
87- youre a manly mountain man
88- when you praise yourself
89- when you're being a tease (mostly all the time)
90- when you got shy at the fans talking about your smile
91- when you forgot how to speak japanese for a few seconds
92- how you OWNED chain era
93- your thighs
94- when you say youre not tired, and show your healing smile (even if yyou stayed hours practicing)
95- when you got johnny's footsize right and everyone started laughing at you
96- your side profile
97- your lips
98- your arms
99- you performing touch
100- when you get happy talking about your lines

101- your kindness
102- your ears
103- when you get shy
104- you're touchy
106- you performing cherry bomb
107- you performing touch
108- when you run your hands through your hair
109- when you pout
110- when you make the peace sign
111- when you hold the mic with both hands and smile like a baby
112- you and the 95 line
113- your height
114- the traces of your face
115- when you were blewing hearts at fans during a fansign
116- when you clap like a baby
117- when you got so happy with your surprise party
118- you wearing suits
119- when you wore the see through shirt
120- your vlogs in osaka
121- when you hug yukhei
122- when you're soft with winwin
123- when wink
124- your handshake with hyuck
125- when you patted mark's head
126- you're a mountain man
127- your eye makeup
128- you in sweaters
129- SWEATER PAWS
130- when you wear hoodies
131- when you wear caps
132- when you wear the bucket hat
133- the basketball outfits
134- the day you swimed from korea to japan
135- when you cutely eat cheese
136- "i can't believe you"
137- you looking cute in your winter coat
138- how you glow like the sun
139- ended every model's career
140- you in a raincoat
141- takoyaki prince
142- your acrostic poems
143- your acrostic poem with "takoyaki"
144- when you were with the sleeping mask
146- your lines in firetuck
147- when you popped the hellium balloon with the knife
148- you were just trying to make a small hole
149- ......... WITH A KNIFE YUTA
150- when you were stretching in nct life paju

151- better to say when you TRIED to stretch
152- and the members had to help you
153- you in a beret
154- i wanted to say "when you grinded on a minion"
155- .... nah better not
156- your reaction eating cheesecake
157- when you told taeyong he's beautiful
158- flower boy
159- your face when johnny did aegyo
160- "please look at my nose"
161- soccer king
162- "i will do everything i can do"
163- you being an mc
164- you wearing suits
165- YES, AGAIN BECAUSE YOU LOOK SO MF GOOD
166- THESE PICS
167- you and rapunzel
168- you and cherry blossoms
169- or should i say "yu and cherry blossoms"
170- when you blow kissed
171- your parts in chain
172- your parts in the japanese album
173- you derving ice cream
174- how you yawn like a baby
175- your scenes in the BOB preview
176- when you squeezed hyuck's cheeks
177- it was cute but just let him kiss you coward
178- your parts in limitless jap version
179- yuta potter casting a spell
180- when you tried to put your phone in your nonexistent back pocket
181- when you called fans your vitamin
182- you during empathy showcase
183- your fake fight with ten
184- nah erase that
185- "i can find love but i can't find money"
186- how you cant control your laugh sometimes
187- you performing celeb five
188- your outfit during chain dance practice
189- your eye makeup for chain
190- your hairstyle and color for chain
191- your outfits during cherry bomb era
192- CENTER YUTA IN TOUCH
193- your outfit for cherry bomb dance practice
194- your attempt to make a heart with jaehyun in touch
195- when you succeeded in making the heart
196-your tummy
197- yuta for ELLE
198- yuta for ARENA home
199- 170401
200- you during welcome nct2018 vlive

201- your confidence
202- you in the yearbooks
203- your body moves
204- your hip work
205- your selfies
206- no, i take that back because you make me starve sometimes
207- but when you post them i'm always blessed
208- yeah the selfies
209- your japanese speeches
210- your smile
211- yes i am writing your smile again because whenever i look at you i cant help falling in love all over again
212- your vocals
213- your style
214- how you're passionate about everything
215- how sweet and friendly you are
216- you drive me insane
217- how you make me cry when you just breathe
218- and how you make me smile just by breathing
219- how you give me purpose
220- you're an inspiration
221- you're gentle
222- you make me feel like home
223- you bring happiness to my life
224- you bring color to my grey days
225- you brought light to my life
226- you're the light
227- you're the reason
228- you're my everything
229- you made me see what true love is
230- it's all you
231- you are true love
232- you are happiness
233- you made me realize i can always be someone better
234- you're fire
235- meeting gasoline
236- you're explosive
237- in a good way of course
238- you make me feel like im flying
239- you're more like a rollercoaster of emotions and i NEVER know what to expect
240- the power you have on me
241- you're smooth
242- you calm me down
243- except when you're performing chain and cherry bomb
244- and black on black
245- but i've mentioned this before
246- you make everyone fall in love with you
247- you are EXTREMELY good at everything you do
248- you work hard
249- you've done well. you always do.
250- you remind me of sunsets

251- and night skies
252- starry nights and sunny days
253- rainy afternoons and a good book
254- you're supportive
255- you made distance just a matter of numbers
256- you make me whole
257- you make me feel like im never alone
258- you made me believe in love again
259- you make the time stop when you smile
260- i feel like i never grow old when i look at you
261- except when i'm waiting for a selfie but well it's worth the wait
262- you talk like an angel
263- you are an angel
264- you make my life complete
265- bro i dont even know if i said "youre sexy/hot" but well if i haven't here it is
266- you remind me of my favorite old songs
267- there's nothing i wouldn't do for you
268- i could hold you forever
269- you always shine bright
270- you're my dream come true
271- the look in you eyes
272- how they light up the sky
273- how you make my heart go "VOOM WOOOSH RATATATATA"and things like that
274- your smile again I FUCKING LOVE IT
275- your collarbones
276- you're my answer
277- you made me see that spendind the eternity with you would be the best thing ever
278- i haven't even see this but i imagine how it must be waking up next to you
279- this hasnt happenned yet, but the WORLD knows what a great father you'll be
280- how you make us all dream
281- how you share your dreams with us
282- how you believe
283- you believe in life
284- you believe in us
285- you believe in yourself but you always know there's room for improvement
286- you never gave up
287- you always chase your dreams
288- you're making history
289- how youre always true to everyone and yourself
290- you heart and eyes never lie
291- you're always beside your loved ones
292- how you always help your friends
293- it's kinda weird how you're always the same but at the same time in constant change
294- you're hard to explain
295- you're expansion
296- you're passion
297- you're infinite
298- YOUR SMILE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN
299- your party spirit
300- dont ask me to explain that better i just love it

301- you can't whistle
302- you're a scorpio
303- actually, you're the first person that made me like scorpios
304- your interactions with jaemin
305- your interactions with winwin
306- the fun you had in nct life osaka
307- ninja yuta
308- the wasabi prank
309- how happy you got when taeil caught a fish
310- when you did your best to win nct life kfood challenge
311- how you and winwin kept eating instead of making the salad jaehyun asked you to do
312- you're the only one
313- you're my only one
314- how you make me lose my breath
315- yet you're the reason why i'm breathing
316- you bring me peace
317- you make me feel secure
318- you're my hero
319- you're the sweetest melody
320- you're strong
321- "we will meet you soon, so wait just a little bit"
322- you and johnny playing with the balloon
323- how your upper lip dissapears when you smile
324- you dancing the speed up version of limitless
325- how you close your eye when you smile/laugh
326- when you tilt your head
327- your smug smiles
328- your giggles
329- your little jumps when you're excited
330- when you whine like a baby
331- when you danced touch my body
332- you performing limitless
333- "guys, oppa is here"
334- YOUR VOCALS IN ANGEL
335- how happy you look performing Once Again
336- you performing sorry sorry
337- in SHORTS
338- THIS
339- when i fed the monkey
340- "i ate two bowls since morning"
341- "he ran away because he doesn't like you" yuta let taeil breathe challenge
342- "do you know what NCT stands for? It's New Culture Technology"
343- "what we're eating is not important. It's important with whom we eat it"
344- "hope that everyone can listen to my voice" yuta talking about nct's superior song
345- you wearing a skirt
346- "in japanese it's just 'aigoo'.... no wait...'acha'"
347- you're extremely funny
348- how you make other members more confident
349- when you found that ninja sword and kept playing with it
350- when you kept holding taeil's arm without even noticing it

351- your veiny arms
352- cherry bomb era again because it was really a blessing
353- yes, skinny yuta is really nice but i just LOVE healthy and well rested yuta
354- "do you like the picture with the jacket? or without-" "WITHOUT" "i knew it"
355- when you bite your lips
356- how aggressive you get when performing
357- well... agrressive and.... sensual
358- when you wear chokers
359- how happy you get talking about the things you love
360- healing smile
361- yes i am mentioning the smile again
362- when you cheer up everyone around you
363- how you're always so lovely
364- you put your heart and soul into everything you do
365- the fact that youre simply, nakamoto yuta. the one that makes me find out what love is on a daily basis. you're perfect the way you are. and i love you for that

𝐚 𝐟𝐞𝐰 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬

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